My Transformation Story
My transformation began in 2011. I was in the midst of deep pain that felt almost unbearable. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. Although I was already used to a lot of emotional and mental pain ever since I remember, that year made me embrace it fully. There was nowhere to run, no one to confide in.
My back-then six-year relationship made me feel like I was dying alive. It felt heavy, and I could see no light at the end of the tunnel. Although he helped me to grow in so many ways, it had far from an equal loving partnership that I was looking for.
I was unable to leave him and give us both a chance for a happier life because I didn't want to hurt him. It didn't help it that my self-worth was close to non-existing (except worth related to my spiritual life that I kept secret). I was deeply buried, all those well-meant opinions of others how my life should unfold. Others' opinions were crushing me, but I had no idea how to start living the way I wanted. I wasn't ready for it until…
I met my twin flame. I was fascinated by him utterly. He opened my heart,, and I began to experience new feelings that I had no idea existed. Many years later, I realized that I spontaneously experienced a kundalini and heart chakra awakening.
However, navigating our connection felt overpowering and all pain that I was avoiding came to surface at ones. I experienced a deep crisis that impact and forever changed everything in my life.
Life didn't hold back from sending me one redirection after another. Each time I thought that things would get better, something else showed up. But this deep pain was making me stronger.
I was in all of it alone, but my spiritual gifts were getting deeper and more obvious to me. I've never questioned the existence of God, and ever since I was little, I was contemplating the meaning of life, how the universe works, and how we can step into our potential. This has helped during the dark night of the soul.
Then salvation came, and I went to China in 2012, where I stayed until 2014.
